Friday: The day after Thursday

Spiritual abuse

2008-02-23T08:33:00.002+13:00

I'm often asked by people to explain what I mean by spiritual abuse. So here goes.

Imagine a child who has been through some of the worst sexual abuse you could imagine from a very young age. The child learns how to tolerate it, the abuse began so long ago, that the child begins to think being raped, sodimised and brutalised is the norm. However one day the childs abuser starts bringing around friends.

The child decides to tell someone, and choses a person that they think will be trustworthy. The day comes the child discloses. But instead of doing the right thing and going with the child to the police and supporting them through the process, the person decides the child looks like a nice piece of meat and rapes the child.

The child retreats into themself. They have learnt from a very young age that people can not be trusted.

Photos

2007-10-23T12:31:00.000+13:00

I was quite rapped with how this one turned out.

Constance

2007-10-21T15:30:00.000+13:00

Child porn isnt a softer option than child abuse. Children still have to be sexually molested for your child porn to be made. This is constances story

If you are into child porn, grow some balls, delete your dirty pictures, and your MPEGs, and any other material you have stored, and go and get some help. How would you feel if this was your child, niece, nephew or friends child. You watchers of child porn are no better than those who abuse

Not right

2007-10-04T19:53:00.000+13:00

Scared
terrified
It wasnt supposed to be like this
In searching for life peace freedom and truth
I found death, torture, bondage and lies
They were supposed to be men and women of God
So why did an encounter with them,
leave me feeling the way I did the day the masks came off
And I saw the Old Ones for what they really were
Christian and witch
One spirit
Not right.
Christian not supposed to be listening to the old one
Christian supposed to be listening to the Holy Spirit
One brings death
One brings life.
Why is the Christian listening to the one who brings death?

This week

2007-09-27T23:43:00.000+12:00

I've been called a pedophile, addict, and alcoholic. And guess what, all by Christians too. Its amazing how good christians are at reacting to things, taking it totally out of context and then proceed to swing from the hip

Alfred Lord Tennyson

2007-09-03T23:06:00.000+12:00

It little profits that an idle king,
By this still hearth, among these barren crags,
Match'd with an aged wife, I mete and dole
Unequal laws unto a savage race,
That hoard, and sleep, and feed, and know not me.
I cannot rest from travel; I will drink
Life to the lees. All times I have enjoy'd
Greatly, have suffer'd greatly, both with those
That loved me, and alone; on shore, and when
Thro' scudding drifts the rainy Hyades
Vext the dim sea. I am become a name;
For always roaming with a hungry heart
Much have I seen and known,-- cities of men
And manners, climates, councils, governments,
Myself not least, but honor'd of them all,--
And drunk delight of battle with my peers,
Far on the ringing plains of windy Troy.
I am a part of all that I have met;
Yet all experience is an arch wherethro'
Gleams that untravell'd world whose margin fades
For ever and for ever when I move.
How dull it is to pause, to make an end,
To rust unburnish'd, not to shine in use!
As tho' to breathe were life! Life piled on life
Were all too little, and of one to me
Little remains; but every hour is saved
From that eternal silence, something more,
A bringer of new things; and vile it were
For some three suns to store and hoard myself,
And this gray spirit yearning in desire
To follow knowledge like a sinking star,
Beyond the utmost bound of human thought.
This is my son, mine own Telemachus,
to whom I leave the sceptre and the isle,--
Well-loved of me, discerning to fulfill
This labor, by slow prudence to make mild
A rugged people, and thro' soft degrees
Subdue them to the useful and the good.
Most blameless is he, centred in the sphere
Of common duties, decent not to fail
In offices of tenderness, and pay
Meet adoration to my household gods,
When I am gone. He works his work, I mine.

There lies the port; the vessel puffs her sail;
There gloom the dark, broad seas. My mariners,
Souls that have toil'd, and wrought, and thought with me,--
That ever with a frolic welcome took
The thunder and the sunshine, and opposed
Free hearts, free foreheads,-- you and I are old;
Old age hath yet his honor and his toil.
Death closes all; but something ere the end,
Some work of noble note, may yet be done,
Not unbecoming men that strove with Gods.
The lights begin to twinkle from the rocks;
The long day wanes; the slow moon climbs; the deep
Moans round with many voices. Come, my friends.
'T is not too late to seek a newer world.
Push off, and sitting well in order smite
The sounding furrows; for my purpose holds
To sail beyond the sunset, and the baths
Of all the western stars, until I die.
It may be that the gulfs will wash us down;
It may be we shall touch the Happy Isles,
And see the great Achilles, whom we knew.
Tho' much is taken, much abides; and tho'
We are not now that strength which in old days
Moved earth and heaven, that which we are, we are,--
One equal temper of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.

I love the last three lines of this poem

Random Photos

2007-08-26T10:39:00.000+12:00

I would like to get into doing more with photography. Its kind of fun, and a heck of alot more interesting and less emotionally involving than social work

Benny Hinn

2007-06-12T17:07:00.000+12:00

Benny Hinn came to Auckland this week. Was listening to the greenroom on life FM on sunday and I hear a story that made me think, also made me feel sad. A guy was telling about a severly unwell young man that couldn't get into Benny's crusade, I think he had cancer or something.

How many people come along to Benny's crusades wanting desperately to be healed, yet get turned away because.......Bleech. IF Benny was so anointed in healing, why doesnt he go into the hospital wards praying for people. Why don't we see people spontaneously regrowing limbs, and severely crippled people getting up and walking...

I dont want to think that someone who has such a high public profile is a charlatan, yet alot of the evidence would suggest that

The Rabbit Proof Fence

2007-08-25T19:37:00.000+12:00

I was baby sitting for my sister last night and got to watching a movie on tv called the Rabbit Proof Fence, its about 3 half caste aboriginal girls that were taken away from their mothers and removed to the Moore River native settlement in Western Australia. The three girls ran away and two of them traveled over 9 weeks to get back to their mothers. The girls were part of what is referred to as the stolen generation. Its interesting, I found a link to a review of the movie that was done by the 1971 Minister of Aboriginal affairs, can we say 'biased'?

One of Australia's dirty little secrets. Its now being bought to the surface once again with John Howard sending the military into the aboriginal settlements in the Northern territory in order to check up on the children and to combat abuse and mistreatment of the children. In all honesty it seems like too little too late. I went to the Broken Links exhibit when in Brisbane, it is about more of the children who were removed from their families between 1930 and 1973. Two of the removals occured in the 1960s and 1970s.

Even though the Minister of Aboriginal affairs Peter Howson states that the problem was not nearly as bad as the movie made out. This report from the Australian Human rights Comission would say otherwise.

The amazingness of nature

2007-08-21T17:52:00.000+12:00

Depression

2007-08-21T12:29:00.000+12:00

I've come to the conclusion that being depressed sucks eggs. Waking up every day feeling like I wanted to die, bites more than I can possibly explain. However for the first time in ages I went for a walk to the gannets colony out at Murawai beach today. The beach was perfect there were few people, the sun was out and it was just an amazing time to be with God in His creation seeing the beauty and wonder of what He made.

I think I am going to have to get into walking regularly, even if I schedule a 30min walk before work, or after work and uni. I think it can be done, and well the benefits are obvious. Endorphins, the bodies natural antidepressant

Like it would ever happen

2007-08-09T20:40:00.000+12:00

City impact church giving something away for free. The start of web broadcasts, however giving previews of 1 minute or so, and to see the rest for $2.95 American.

And theres churches like St Pauls, a prosperous thriving church, that puts the sermons onto podcasts each week, all for the low low price of $0

New Laptop

2007-08-08T12:23:00.000+12:00

I made an application to the June Opie trust in june. They are a trust that offers grants to students on low incomes (with a disability) to purchase needed technical equipment. Was told that I would hear in the first week in July. Came back from Australia, no letter. Rang several weeks later and recieved the news that I had been accepted, however it wouldnt be able to be purchased straight away as the woman was going away on holiday.

Well, on Monday, the cheque arrived and I got to go shopping. My new laptop is an acer aspire 5610. It seems to have so much better battery life than the toshiba brick and it seems so much lighter as well

Thanks So much June Opie

Celtic Blessing

2007-07-27T19:58:00.000+12:00

May the road rise up to meet you.
May the wind be always at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face;
the rains fall soft upon your fields and until we meet again, may God hold you in the palm of His hand.

May the blessing of light be on you -
light without and light within.
May the blessed sunlight shine on you like a great peat fire,
so that stranger and friend may come and warm himself at it.
And may light shine out of the two eyes of you,
like a candle set in the window of a house,
bidding the wanderer come in out of the storm.
And may the blessing of the rain be on you,
may it beat upon your Spirit and wash it fair and clean,
and leave there a shining pool where the blue of Heaven shines,
and sometimes a star.
And may the blessing of the earth be on you,
soft under your feet as you pass along the roads,
soft under you as you lie out on it,
tired at the end of day;
and may it rest easy over you when,
at last, you lie out under it.
May it rest so lightly over you that your soul may be out from under it quickly;
up and off and on its way to God.
And now may the Lord bless you,
and bless you kindly.
Amen.

Taken from here. I think the Celts had such an excellent way of expressing themselves in language

A house divided

2007-07-22T10:19:00.000+12:00

Jesus said "a house divided against itself can not stand" (Mark 3:25)

If the body of Christ is divided against itself how can it stand? Its time to realise that those in a different denomination are not of the devil...

How about we start acknowledging the things that we have in common with our brothers and sisters in Christ? Rather than focusing on and obsessing over the different

Exam results

2007-07-04T17:51:00.000+12:00

I'm happy with these

Exam week

2007-06-15T10:27:00.000+12:00

Well folks, its now Friday, 2 exams down and three to go. The next one is this afternoon. Managed to bring up my average for social policy, got an A and an A- on my presentation and essay, so that was fairly cool and would definately bring up the C+ i got in the first essay. Yesterday was Community Development which ark errrr I actually enjoyed. Ran into T, as I was getting some lunch on the way home. T is the lecturer for community development, and hes like "how was the exam, do you think the others enjoyed it?". I don't know how they liked it. TH, was freaking, but then again I think she totally underestimates her own abilities.

Anyhow, only eight more sleeps and I'm off to Australia.

George Bushes watch stolen

2007-06-13T18:19:00.000+12:00

What is our news comming to? George Bushs watch stolen while he was on walk about in Albania.

Big nobbing deal!!!!!!! Seriously, who cares

The bible in 50 words

2007-06-09T06:38:00.000+12:00

I wish I could take credit for this one, however I found this on the blog of elisheva Georgia, US.

the Bible in 50 Words

God made
Adam bit
Noah arked
Abraham split
Joseph ruled
Jacob fooled
Bush talked
Moses balked
Pharaoh plagued
People walked
Sea divided
Tablets guided
Promise landed
Saul freaked
David peeked
Prophets warned
Jesus born
God walked
Love talked
Anger crucified
Hope died
Love rose
Spirit flamed
Word spread
God remained.

2007-06-08T13:43:00.000+12:00

2007-06-08T07:43:00.001+12:00

Nannied for my sister yesterday. Their nanny quit this week, right about the time S was due to start on nights. Anyhow had my digicam along and took alot of photos, lucily enough J & J my nephews are really photogenic and love having their photos taken. Anyhow, the oldest J has lost his rain jacket and had to put him in S's jacket which of course he absolutley swam in.. I got this one as we were walking down the path by the preschool yesterday, I thought it was rather cool.

Some more

2007-06-07T08:54:00.000+12:00

Some more of mine

2007-06-06T11:41:00.001+12:00

Please note these photos are copyright, while I have no problem with them being used in non profit research or academic study, if you wish to use them comerically please email me

Some of mine: My new digicam

2007-06-05T13:58:00.001+12:00

Looking back at this week

2007-06-04T22:56:00.000+12:00

I had a lovely conversation with a Hare Krishna.

Got witnessed to by a Jehovah's witness and a Mormon

But do you think anyone spoke to me when I went to a new church this week?

Ok, so perhaps I could have made an effort, however when other religons are out actively evangilising for their faiths, and a new person to a church cant even get a hello. It seems like something is terribly wrong.