I hates those moments when the mood dips....... Feeling really blah this PM

Decided today that I would look into pursuing my studies at Auckland Uni, if Massey would not let me do six papers next year. I figure that the decision to change in the first place came about because I felt God was leading me in a different direction and he would lead the way. Part of me wonders if this idea of going to Auckland is another step in Gods plan, because the thought has the same sort of feelings attached, when I made the decision to change my degree..... Anyhow, the plan is to apply at Massey and Auckland, believing that God will show the clear path, and to trust that God is showing the path, no matter how much it terrifys me.

My calling is to not work in the church, it is to be walking in the gutters with those people who think that the world doesnt give a shit about them, those that are so angry, and so hurting they feel they could bleed with the intensity of those feelings, to be priviliged to show them the Creator, to preach the gospel and when necessary use words