Listening to the greenroom on life FM tonight. Touched on the concept of sex before marriage, and how its a lot healthier and more in line with Gods plan for us... But also looking at why so many people don't wait...

I would have been classified as frigid for many years. The abuse I went through as a kid completely froze me out towards sex. And then somewhere along the line, I discovered that sex wasn't that painful and went from being frigid to being a slut.....I used to hook up with complete strangers from the internet. It was easier that way, although even thats come back to bite me in the ass this year.

For me sex is nothing special, and the fact that I saw it as nothing special made it easy to sell it. It was funny selling sex wasnt that hard, and I dont think it hurt me to much, what I struggled with was having to pretend that I was interested in the person I was with. Eg that they were the greatest shag ever, and the most amazing person. Perhaps thats why I moved from straight sex work into pro Domming. being a bitch Godness, meant that I didnt have to try and be nice

My heart is sad...

God they tell me that what I've done, doesn't matter. Are they telling the truth? Have I really not fallen to far for you to find me?