what a night. About an hour before gateway my mind set shifted from one of arrrkkk I want to run to one of "Screw this" its time to take care of busines. It wasnt anywhere as bad as I thought it would be. As L read out all the groups it like part of me was going "crap" here we go agaiin...

Its awesome to know that I have shut the door on suicicide, I feel a huge release in that area. Like some huge doors have been closed. I now know that I have freedom in that area... It was like L said, to want oneself dead is not something of god.

But also shutting the dor on witchcraft was another area that I feel over the moon about. I think I am finnaly starting to recognise that awesome power and authority that my lord has given me...

I think the abuse stuff is still going to be an issue