How the heck is it possible to be so completely in conflcit about something. I mean I want to get right with god, and get free from my baggage. Yet last night when the annointing came down I felt like my guts was getting ripped in too. I cried out to God when I was going home last night, told him that I couldnt do it anymore, and that I was giving up...

and god being the awesome god that he is , met me where I was at yet again. I had the most awesome sleep last night. Woke up this morning feeling really rested. And actually having the stress under control again today. Spoke with C about getting a ride on tuesday, thought if the getting to church was issue then if it was taken out of my hands then that would probably be a good thing, because as much as I want to get my life right, I am also in conflict and want to run as fast as possible